It’s been a full month since the Rebuilding Beautiful Retreat and I wanted to take this opportunity to express my heartfelt gratitude, for the space which is Tessy's Brunches.

I know I've said it before, but this space is something that I really needed in my life right now and I am so grateful that you've had the energy and the tenacity to put it together and to keep it going. 

Honestly for me it's been a Godsend so I wanted to put my gratitude into words and hopefully they will translate into a massive hug too!

Secondly, and maybe a little more on the deep side, I want to share my journey on opening the letter to myself. 

For me, the weekend exceeded my expectations, I had visualised the weekend as a pit stop for some rest, an opportunity to get away from it all and have some uninterrupted sleep and a bit of peace, but it turned out to be way more than that.  

The weekend was filled with inspiration, connection, joy and the audacity to consider my personal desires for the future without any Mum/Wife-Guilt attached to it.  

Before we went home on Sunday, Tessy asked us to write a letter to ourselves which would be posted to us so we may open it after 21 days.  We were to write to ourselves expressing our hopes and desires, or simply something we wanted to say to the Woman we hoped we would be in 21 days – it was a message to our future self.

I wrote that letter to myself full of conviction, love and hope for the future but when it landed on my doorstep exactly 21 days later, all I could feel was fear. 

I was scared because I remembered some of the things that I had put in that letter and I thought that I may have let myself down, I doubted my capacity to honour myself and go after what I wanted and needed.  

There was a fear that I wouldn't fulfill what I'd written to myself or believe those words that I spoken to myself in the .

When the letter arrived, to say I was hesitant to open it was an understatement.

It arrived with all of our household and business mail, and was promptly sorted into my personal pile.  And it sat there.  For days.

I then decided that I would take it upstairs to my personal space and open it, almost ceremoniously, but still I couldn’t do it.  The fear of disappointing myself was holding me back.  

From opening a letter to myself.  

It was just a simple 2 sided letter, but what it represented meant a great deal to me.

Next step, I thought, let me message my accountability partner and share my fears with her.  And to my surprise, her words “OMG I thought it was just me.  But I opened it…”  And she was happy with it.

Honestly, having my accountability Sister has been amazing.  She shared some kind words with me and let me know I had been a consistent support & a source of encouragement to her and she let me know she felt loved. It’s a reciprocal relationship. 

We all know sisterhood is important and that’s another aspect to this community.

But it took me a whole 10 days to open that letter and I was amazed.

When I read the letter, I believed every word of love and encouragement that that I had written to myself, you see I’m a woman that pours love into everyone and everything around me and often has little left for myself.

I had set some personal goals that I didn’t know if I would even believe they would be possible, but I have achieved and surpassed some of them. 

So I write this letter to let you know, there is something magical about the space you've created and the work that you're doing and I wanted to share that with you. 

The day I opened my letter to myself and the day I’m writing this letter, is also the first day starting something which was a little dream at the Rebuilding Beautiful.  This is a special time for me and I wanted to share this moment with you and also to say thank you.

Love Cx